Saturday, September 28, 2019

Prosper Our Handiwork: Young Charles Ives Interprets a Psalm for All Ages

Psalm 90, appointed for Saturday in the Episcopal Book of Common Prayer, always calls to my mind the setting by Charles Ives, a grand work, full of spiky dissonances and extravagant musical gestures. Forty-two years after I sang Psalm 90 with Duke University's chapel choir, I remember how the bass pedal tone starts the piece and sustains throughout, even after the singing stops, nearly ten minutes, representing God's eternal presence before creation and after the end of all existence.  Chimes spaced throughout the chapel's vast nave above the congregation added warmth and brilliance to the lines about creation early and late in the piece. Ives painted the words of the King James text in a variety of ways.

The choir worked weeks to count the irregular measures and to tune the dissonant chords, especially a twelve - tone pile - up on the verse about God's wrath. After the service, I asked my roommate Ned Rodriguez what he'd thought of all that. "I'm sorry, but we don't listen; we just pass the plate and read the program."

Well, that's what the psalm is about: all that sound and fury, come and gone, for nothing. But that's not the whole story. Forty-plus years later, I appreciate what Ives does to bring out the context of that somber message.

[Photo: Duke University Chapel, view of the nave from the choir. The Flentrop Organ was new when I sang there.]
The 90th Psalm begins, Lord, You have been our refuge from one generation to another (v.1), to which composer Charles Ives, aged 24 in 1894, added, "to another... to another...." As each phrase slowly mounts a melodic step, it falls with a musical sigh, until the third iteration cuts off sharply.

Consciously or not, Ives echoes Macbeth's "tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow," our days crawling in "this petty pace" towards "dusty death," (for, as the psalm says, we are children of earth who turn back to the dust), the journey "signifying nothing." Perhaps Ives's final "another," abruptly ended, echoes Macbeth's clipped "nothing."


[Photo: Charles Ives (left), pitcher for a school team, around the time he composed Psalm 90. See Wikiwand.]

A young man singing a young man's composition, I sensed that, like me,  Ives sometimes foresaw the decades ahead of him as a hard climb. My greatest fear was to plateau, never having attained the pinnacle, simply to drop off, unremembered. Psalm 90 tells us, Sorry, that's the way it's going to be:
You sweep us away like a dream;
we fade away suddenly like the grass.
In the morning it is green and flourishes;
in the evening it is dried up and withered. (v.5, 6)

Ives, using the King James version, does some word - painting with these lines. The chorus attenuates each word of the phrase "In the evening it is cut down," but the words "and withereth," crumple suddenly in a little row of half - tones.

The span of our life is seventy years,
perhaps in strength even eighty;
yet the sum of them is but labor and sorrow, for they pass away quickly and we are gone. (v.10)

In Ives, the chorus chants the King James version of these lines: "the years of our lives are three score years and ten," perhaps, "by reason of strength, we have four score years." Ives makes those last words a trudging succession of sighing two - syllable words: "FO-ur SCO-re YE-ars." Long life, it seems, is a hard slog that an individual must endure with resignation.

But Psalm 90 isn't just about the ephemeral lives of individuals; it's also about creation and community.   This is, after all, a song for many voices, plus percussion, plus organist. The opening lines situate our lives within God's memory, from before time "when the mountains were brought forth" to "everlasting." The community, i.e., Israel, pleads that God bless them the same number of years that they've suffered for their sins.

I remember how the final section of the piece felt like warm comfort after the dryness, the strain, and the destruction of that middle section: "Prosper Thou our handiwork upon us,/ Prosper Thou our handiwork."

There's an assurance in this Psalm, highlighted by Ives's music, that our short lives have meaning as we, creators ourselves in our "handiwork," are part of the ongoing creation, perhaps forgotten by men in time, but remembered by God.

And that Ives piece, which I've heard just a couple times since I sang it, is remembered by me.

Sunday, September 22, 2019

Ten Years Cycling the John Lewis Freedom Trail


Saturdays from late spring to early autumn, the John Lewis Freedom Trail has offered me a varied landscape for an easy and mostly car - free loop from Atlanta to Stone Mountain park. It's always a slow time, because of all the stops and starts for traffic lights, pedestrians, and blind driveways.

Only this past week, I recognized those stops as opportunities to practice acceleration. I remember early in my biking that I made the connection between acceleration, its frequency and intensity, and fitness. So on the trail in the past week, I've had my best two times of the year, closest to the best time ever.

I wrote a reflection for Independence Day on the communities through which the trail passes, Does God Bless America? (07/05/2017)

[Photos from top: Reflection in a building on Boulevard in Atlanta, following a time of 12.3; yesterday during a break for snack at Stone Mountain, the trail upward to the village of Stone Mountain wending behind me; and reflection in my car window at the end of the ride, average speed 13.9 mph. The all - time best is 14.2.]



























Tuesday, September 17, 2019

Holy Cross: Beyond the Jesus Brand

The cross is a brand on billboards and bumper stickers; a talisman in vampire movies.  Writing a meditation for Holy Cross Day in the September 2019 issue of Forward Day by Day, the rector of St. Luke's Episcopal Church of Camillus, New York defined the significance of that icon in a way that makes sense to me. I quote Jon M. White, verbatim:
Galatians 6.14a.May I never boast of anything except the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.
Jesus' ministry is invitational, not coercive. He responds to the faith of those who seek him with healing and wholeness - he does not demand their obeisance or obedience. Jesus reserves his sharpest words for those who impose barriers on loving responses to the world's pain.
The cross reminds us that the oppressive powers of evil must always be resisted, not co - opted. The death and resurrection of Jesus reminds us that the kingdom of God is made manifest when we name and confront evil, when we work to destroy its power and undo its effects. But the generative power of God is too great even for death, and the cross of Christ reminds us of God's victory over evil on our behalf.

The day's reading from John 12.31-36 also refers to Jesus's being lifted up on the cross to draw others to him.

I'm responding here to the alternative to those other understandings of the crucifixion's efficacy, as ransom paid to Satan, or satisfaction paid to a retributive God, or sacrifice of an innocent. Those spoke to earlier generations more than to mine. But White says it simply: God in Jesus showed us how to confront evil with love, and the resurrection gives us courage to face the consequences.


Photos: From St. James, Marietta, the cross carved into the doors to the nave, where I peaked in one night to see the illuminated altar; the cross made for Lent by longtime parishioner Bill Johnson, with naturally cracked wood at its heart.
















Saturday, September 14, 2019

Dementia Diary: "Everything's Funny!"

She said today that everything's funny. It's true: she fell after her shower, and Laura her sitter couldn't get her up without help: that was funny.  The med tech had more than twelve pills, inhalers, and creams for her: that was funny. "After this, I won't need breakfast," she always says.

 I've got a few punchlines that make her laugh so hard that she stops and bends over, always in places inopportune -- automatic doors stuck open until she moves, or in front of the restaurant kitchen where two waiters waited.

Here are some guaranteed laugh lines:

  • "There's nothing wrong with my knees," she says, before she tries to stand.  But when we walk, she looks down and says, "Why are my feet making that noise?"  Because you're shuffling, Mom. I observe that she walks like Godzilla, swaying side to side.  She invariably slaps my shoulder, and I yell "Child abuse!" 
  •  We avoid curbs, ever since she face - planted at the curb at Target.  Picturing that cracks her up.
  • Dressing, she always notices in the mirror the "hole" at the back of her head, a balding spot. I promise that I'll cover it with my hand, or say that I have a baseball cap for her to wear. Big laughs.
  • As we go out to lunch, we pass a community room where all the wheelchair - bound patients sit with vacant stares. "We're going out to lunch," I say, "but they're already out to lunch." She loves that.
  • When we get in the car, I help her to fasten the seat belt. I say, "I've got to tuck you in."  
  •  She says she hasn't got any purse or money or anything; I tell her she's like the Queen -- "You live in this palatial building, chauffeurs drive you everywhere, and you have people to handle your finances."  She laughs until she can't breathe when I tell her that the manager here calls her "Princess."
Today, she cracked me up with the observation, "My underwear is getting bigger." She can't believe that she now weighs more than I do, because her walking and exercise are so limited.

And did I mention the one about Sassy?  "Your little dog died a couple years ago, Mom," I replied to her sadly.  "Good!" Mom said.  "I haven't fed her anything!"

There was the shopping list posted to her mirror: "Wine. Cigarettes."  You haven't smoked in 50 years, I said.  "Well, you don't want me to  live forever, do you?"

Maybe not.  But so long as she's alive, I hope she can keep this sense of humor.
See more at my page, Dementia Diary.

Theology for Breakfast: Forward Day by Day, August 2019

The quarterly periodical Forward Day by Day gives an Episcopalian the day's readings as set forth in the Book of Common Prayer along with personal reflections by a different writer for each month.  I've used this resource with the short service for morning (BCP p. 140) for years, now, marking any meditation that strikes me for collection on this blog every three months.  I made so many check marks in August that I can't wait until the next quarter. The author is  Cathy Tyndall Boyd, rector of St. Martin's Episcopal Church in Williamsburg, Virginia.


Boyd likes to focus on parts of Biblical stories that seem inexplicable or even abhorrent to us.
  • For no apparent reason, David refuses the honor of caring for the ark of the Lord (2 Samuel 6.10); Boyd reflects on how she, too, once wanted to refuse an obligation to serve a stranger, and how the kindness of that stranger turned out to be a memorable blessing. She asks, "When have you said, 'no thanks,' and wished you had chosen differently?"
  • "David's command to have Uriah murdered and his coercive intercourse with Bathsheba are not momentary lapses in judgment -- this is David's long game." She goes on, "God knows what utter savagery David is capable of committing -- the same kinds you and I are capable of -- and loves us anyway. This boggles the mind. Thanks be to God."
  • Boyd writes similarly of Paul, a "problematic character." Granted that, she asks, "what do we do with Saul of Tarsus... a terrible, awful, mean person." Again, "It is a great mystery and a deep mercy that God's purpose can be worked out by angry, spiteful, mean people."
  • About Paul, she writes, "I suspect he was a pretty serious dude," but she draws our attention to a joke that Paul makes as a prisoner when the governor Agrippa accuses him of trying to convert him: I pray to God that not only you but also all who are listening to me today might become such as I am -- except for the chains (Acts 26.29). Boyd concludes that "Jesus's friends and disciples are real people who tell jokes, enjoy shared meals, and value humanity more than legality."
  • About Act2 28.9, how Paul healed many people of illness and blindness, she ponders how we usually think of Paul: "Agitator, preacher, orator, persecutor, letter - writer, sure -- but a healer?" She cautions us, "Sometimes we are blind to the full picture because we con't want to see the soft, lovely, kind parts of people we usually find hard, irritating, or abrupt."
Boyd writes, anent Mark 9.32 They did not understand what he was saying, that Jesus "isn't an orderly guy - at every turn, he upends the political and theological status quo," and "Christianity is not a very orderly religion." I love the next line: "God is more of an artist than a mathematician -- things rarely add up." So "our lives of faith are not so much about possessing the truth, exacting certainty, or bending God's will to our will," but a life in Christ -- the "community" of His body, the church. She advises us to "be flexible and open to a bit of miraculous Holy Spirit chaos."

Do not be afraid, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom, says Jesus (Luke 12.32). Because "life is a creative process," Boyd writes, we can see a shape or design in retrospect, but during the events, "trying to picture an invisible and unknown future, it's easy to be afraid."

Boyd imagines that great cloud of witnesses in the first part of Hebrews 12.1 as the crowd cheering us in our own individual races imagined in the second part, urging us to persevere; and we are in that cloud of witnesses, too. Nice way to tie all together. She writes that the entire chapter 12 is a love letter to "forerunners" in the Jewish faith.

Boyd makes me reconsider the lengthy Psalm 119, one that I've found tedious to read or sing. She quotes verse 145 (!), I call with my whole heart; answer me, O Lord, that I may keep your statutes. She writes
When I need help expressing the depths of despair or the heights of joy, I can find the perfect words here [in the Psalms]. During times when I am angry or feel persecuted, I am comforted that the psalmist has been there before me. When I have hostile thoughts that I am reluctant to call "prayer," I go to the psalms and find the words. Given that this poetry is thousands of years old, it appears God can handle all my feelings. For this I am grateful. ...The God who made us knows us and loves us fully.

About Psalm 131.2, I do not occupy myself with great matters, or with things that are too hard for me, Boyd observes that all the readings assigned for August 22 "burst with intrigue": Absalom's rebellion, the plot to silence Paul, and the effort to entrap Jesus in heresy. Boyd reminds us how often Jesus tells us that this kind of intrigue continues throughout our lives. She concludes
It is a necessary spiritual discipline to resist occupying ourselves with things -- or people -- we can't control. The God who made heaven and earth can handle being God; our job is to bask in that truth and let the rest of it go. [emphasis mine]

Boyd's benedictory final meditation responds to the bleak sentence from Mark 14.50, All of them deserted him and fled. She observes that Liturgical Christians associate this passage with Holy Week, but it pops up again and again. "The life of faith," she writes, "like the liturgical year..."
...is a circular thing. We learn things, we grow; we forget the things we have learned, we fall, we get back up -- and we learn more things. Lather, rinse, repeat.... Jesus is our model of faithfulness to God.
People let us down, she adds, but "we are not meant to do our lifework alone. Thanks be to God."

Monday, September 02, 2019

Record Time, Labor Day Weekend


Yes, today I rode my bike in record time from the Martin Luther King, Jr. Memorial Center to Stone Mountain and back, 2:40 minutes, 14.2 m.p.h., a personal record (beats 14.1 last year).  But really I just want to record the time I've had, a delightful interlude in the busy start of the school year. [Surpassed 9/14, 14.3 m.p.h.]

[Photo: After the ride.]


The weekend began with Middle School Field Day, then a walk with Brandy in the battlefield park, and a walk from my friend Susan's house to the Marietta Square for a sidewalk dinner in front of Shillings. Saturday, I took Brandy to the Vet in Roswell for bloodwork preparatory to tackling her heartworms; we won't know how bad the "burden" she carries until tomorrow. Fingers crossed. I rode 42 miles at 16.5 m.p.h. on the Silver Comet, and enjoyed my home - cooked dinner with cocktail on the patio, and Brandy enjoyed the time with me.

[Photo: Brandy alert in the car.]


Sunday, breakfast with Suzanne, friend and former neighbor, now living in far Buckhead. We went to church just like old times, and the chorus sucked in rehearsal but nailed our anthems during the service. I took Mom to lunch, and then went off to the memorial service for "Miss Bobbie" Lytle, long - time administrative assistant at Walker School. The former Headmaster Don Robertson told how he'd interviewed many for the job, and none needed it more than Bobbie, and she was so kind and friendly, but she wasn't up to speed on typing and shorthand. His wife had pointed out that she'd be the face of Walker for everyone who visited, and wasn't kind and friendly what that job needed? No regrets, Don said, decades later.



This morning, Susan met Brandy and me for a walk through the early - morning preparations for another day of "Art in the Park" at Marietta's Square, and we ate at our favorite breakfast / lunch place, Douceur de France, a dog - friendly café.

A drive downtown and my ride followed, on a gloriously clear sunny day, breezes picking up perhaps from distant Hurricane Dorian. I kept the radio off so that I could just enjoy the time.

[Photos below: Susan with Brandy after a walk through the Confederate Cemetery; Susan's photo of Brandy and me at the café.]